The Dating Couple

I’m glad that we’re back up. It gives me an excuse to think about sex and women all day so that I can tell all of you about it.

With everything going on lately, it’s been hard to think about sex or to feel sexy. The new office I work in is very conservative, yet open. It’s kind of strange. I’ve seen all sorts of people working there, but since I’m in human resources, I have to act proper and unassuming. I’ve had to cut back a lot on my ogling. However, that doesn’t stop me from looking at some of the cuter girls, especially when they bend over in low cut shirts.

I have been keeping up on my studies. The book I’m reading, Body Language, is an old book but it’s well written and makes some very interesting points. One of the ideas that I would like to try, once we meet more people, is to have a silent cocktail party with people from all walks of life. The idea is to have everyone communicate through body language instead of using words because words can and do mask who we truly are.

I think that’s one of the reasons I like blogging so much. I don’t have to pretend to be someone else here. I can let all of my readers know exactly how much of a pervert I am and not worry about what they think. It’s hard to think of the people who read this blog as people instead of abstract ideas of people. I guess that’s why it’s so hard when bloggers find that someone they know has been reading their blog and confronts them about it. It means that instead of “non-persons” reading the blog, it make the people reading the blog more real and tactile.

The other thing I’m learning from the book are ways to work on dropping the mask hat I wear. I grew up being a very private person and clearly wanted everyone to stay away. I worked very hard to keep up that appearance for most of my childhood and adult life. I want to be able to be social, to look approachable.

Once I am approached, I do great with conversation and with keeping things interesting. The problem is, the only place this typically happens is at work when it’s expected. I guess, the real test will be this weekend. I’ll finish reading the book in a few days and hopefully be able to drop my front and be the wild and fun loving person I’ve always wantedto be.

It’s very frustrating to be me at times. I see a girl I want to talk to and I agonize over whether or not I should talk to her. For others, it seems easy. Just go up and say hello. Sometimes, I feel bold and do this. Most of the time, I try to find out things about her. I try to guess what she’s like. If she works at a store I shop at I go there more often, just to get a glimpse. Eventually working up to introducing myself. I do usually get to that point and invite her out.

I guess the real problem I have is in crowd settings. One on one, I do great. I’m able to drop the mask and talk openly about who I am and why I am the way I am. I love talking about my artwork and other passions. I love hearing people talk about the things they love.

I realize I’m rambling. So, I’ll stop. Hopefully, I’ll be able to have something more interesting to talk about Thursday. I hope everyone is having a good week and thank you for sticking with us through all the server trouble.